okay so I have a lot to say. Tonight I have a concert and ima be pocahontas, so I cant wait to see what everyone thinks about it, I will post pictures tomorrow or something. Then after my concert me and some of my dancers and a few other people are gong to chill and watch scary movies (I will end up falling asleep). I want to go trick r treating. I think people would be surprised to see me standing at their door asking for candy. I might go before the concert, that would be interesting. Okay so I want to talk about a friend of mine named Vanessa. In 2007 while I was on the best of both worlds tour she died. I was completely broken, and I still cry when I think of her. She was only 9 and she was seriously ill with Cystic Fibrosis. I met her while visiting a hospital in LA and we instantly connected it was like god had answered my prayers. Vanessa was the sister that god forgot to give me. I didn’t know her for that long but I learned a lot from her. She made me believe in myself & see the light. When she died I literally couldn’t believe it. I was devastated. I remember we stopped at walmart I was on tour at the time and I went out into a snow covered field and just lay there thinking, crying, wishing. Not a day goes by where I do not think about this little girl, she meant so much to me and I cant believe I lost her. Im crying right now from typing this. My heart is aching. recently im thinking even more about her because im on tour and I was on tour when she died. Its october 31st it was october 31st I found out she died. I woke up around 1am this morning with tears pouring down my face as if it was a sign. She is my angel now. I know that she would be proud and wouldn’t want me to be this upset. I miss you sweet sweet Vanessa. your beautiful Ariel like hair your cute button nose, your meaningful eyes. You will be in my dreams tonight and it will be like you never left me. I love ya.